What I didn’t know then was that this wrongful death sentence was only part of the torture I would experience for the next 18 1/2 years. I didn’t know that I would be forced to live in an 8-foot, by 12-foot cage. I didn’t know I would have to use a steel toilet, connected to my steel sink, in plain view of the male and female corrections officers who would walk the runs in front of my cell. I didn’t know that for years on end I would have no physical contact with a single human being.
I didn’t know that guards would feed me like a dog, through a slot in my door. Instead of providing basic nutrients, the food sometimes contained rat feces, broken glass or the sweat of the inmate who cooked it. This diet caused me health problems that continue today.
If you believe in the death penalty, I hope you would at least agree that some of us – the innocent ones and ones unlawfully sentenced to die – did not deserve this torture. Even if you believe in the death penalty, these torturous conditions make no sense. They damaged guys so much they could not repent for their crimes. Guys could not focus on the wrong they had done when they had a legitimate complaint of being tortured in administrative segregation by the state of Texas. And the torture was unnecessary.
I lived through solitary and I know there is a better way. These bills should become law because solitary is simply a tool to break a man’s spirit – it doesn’t make him better or our communities safer.
submitted on behalf of six wrongfully convicted individuals at the first-ever Congressional Hearing on Solitary Confinement.